Shia LaBeouf on his Georgia arrest: ‘White privilege & desperation & disaster’

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Shia LaBeouf is a talented and troubled guy. In addition to bad-behavior rumors on set, he has had a sordid life involving multiple arrests and lawsuits for violent or reckless behavior. Since his last run-in in Georgie last summer, Shia went to counseling and got sober. Currently promoting Borg vs. McEnroe, Shia is ready to talk about his past struggles and take responsibility for his actions. You know I’ve never been a big Shia fan, but I have to say, this is a much different person than I’ve been reading about for years.

Shia LaBeouf has done a lot of soul searching in the last eight months.

In July 2017, the 31-year-old actor was arrested in Savannah, Ga., for disorderly conduct, obstruction and public drunkenness.

But that wasn’t the worst of it. LaBeouf belittled a black officer for being “stuck in a police force that doesn’t give a f–k ’bout you.” Speaking about his latest arrest for the first time in Esquire’s April 2018 issue, he says, “What went on in Georgia was mortifying. White privilege and desperation and disaster…It came from a place of self-centered delusion…It was me trying to absolve myself of guilt for getting arrested.” In short, LaBeouf admits, “I f–ked up.”

The morning after he was released from jail, LaBeouf attended a party for the cast and crew of The Peanut Butter Falcon-and no one mentioned the incident. “Everybody was pussyfooting around it,” he recalls-except for his co-star, Zachary Gottsagen, an up-and-coming 32-year-old actor. LaBeouf estimates they discussed his bad behavior for 20 minutes. At one point, he recalls Gottsagen telling him, “You’re already famous. This is my chance. And you’re ruining it.’”

Not everyone has been so willing to give LaBeouf a second chance, however.

“I’m run out. No one’s giving me a shot right now. Spike Lee is making a movie. I was talking to him about it,” he says. “He goes to the money and pushes to try to get me in the movie, the money says no, and that’s the end of me hanging out with Spike Lee for this film.”

LaBeouf didn’t ever think he’d be in such a position. After all, by 2011, the actor’s franchise films with directors Michael Bay and Steven Spielberg had grossed over $ 4 billion. “Michael and Steven did a lot for me,” LaBeouf says. “I’m not going to pooh-pooh those dudes anymore.”

But starring in the Indiana Jones and Transformers franchises wasn’t very fulfilling, and by age 25, LaBeouf felt as if her were “living in a gilded cage. No one gives a f–k about your problems.” LaBeouf says his films with Bay and Spielberg “felt irrelevant” in the grand scheme of things.

“It’s very hard to keep doing what you’re doing when you feel like it’s the antithesis of your purpose on this planet.”

LaBeouf knows he has a long road ahead of him. “I’m a buffoon. My public outbursts are failures. They’re not strategic. They’re a struggling motherf–ker showing his ass in front of the world,” he says. “I’ve got to look at my failures in the face for a while. I need to take ownership of my s–t and clean up my side of the street a bit before I can go out there and work again, so I’m trying to stay creative and learn from my mistakes. I’ve been falling forward for a long time. Most of my life.” Taking ownership, he admits, “The truth is, in my desperation, I lost the plot.”

As part of his court-mandated treatment last fall, LaBeouf-who is now sober-underwent prolonged-exposure therapy. “A lot of my s–t has to do with my relationship with my dad,” he says. “That dude is my gasoline.” To his credit, his dad is “the whole reason I became an actor.”

Considering his bad boy reputation, LaBeouf is wary of his public image. “I went to sleep last night thinking that this is going to be some boo-hoo piece: ‘Oh, here he is not trying to own his s–t. He’s trying to put it on his father…’” he says. “My dad handed me a lot, and his legacy was an emotional one. And it wasn’t scarring. He handed me texture. My dad blessed me that way.”

[From E! with quotes from Esquire]

This sounds like someone who really has examined his own behavior. I’m impressed that he’s accepted he needs to earn another chance after all the bridges he’s burned. I didn’t intend to read the full Esquire article but I couldn’t stop. Just a few thoughts: I understand what he’s saying about no one caring about your problems when you are on top. Like somehow making a lot of money means you are not allowed to be dissatisfied with the work you did to earn it. Also, I don’t think this comes off as a “boo-hoo piece,” I think Shia understands many of his issues stem from his relationship with his father but that the havoc he created because of those issues are all on him. You can’t treat the illness until you find its source. I think it’s a very valuable revelation and one not many come to. I never thought I’d say this but I’m pulling for Shia. I hope he continues on this path.




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